I don’t even know why I bother anymore!! >:(

I never go out. Not because I don’t want to, not because I don’t like socialising but because I can’t fucking afford it!

I know we all say “we’re skint” yet you all seem to manage to go out. You don’t get it. I am!! My parents won’t lend me money. My £500 monthly wage is to pay for my car insurance, phone, petrol, train tickets to university and my food and on top of that Ethan is getting NO money so that means add on his food and travel too. 

You might now understand why my bank balance is sitting at -£400 and it’s just over 3 weeks until pay day.

I’m fucking stressed out. I’ve had so much crap going on recently that a night out would have been so good for me. I needed cheering up from the funeral, from the upcoming court case, from my miserable bank balance etc. So when I text you and ask if everyone is going to the pub tonight and get no reply, I won’t know what fucking pub you’re at or if everyone is going!

But thank you. It felt so good this morning waking up, going on facebook and seeing photos of everyone out and reading all the status’ about how much fun you had!

I’ve fucking had it! I don’t come out because I can’t!! Not because I don’t want to!! But if you’re not invited it’s pretty fucking difficult anyway!!!

smileandlookalive asked: you are the baby master :P See now that you aren't saving lives and all that all the time now... Drinks and things ? Also, Imagine not even saying hi to me on Sunday ='( xxx

Yup! Don’t have any money at all but can always come and drink some water! haha.

And I didn’t even see you! Ethan said that you were working but that was it. I didn’t want to hunt you down in your work place! Plus I hate it when people talk to me if I’m working so just thought everyone else was the same?

xxx

Update on me! Since I haven’t been here for forever!

I am finally on holiday! (study leave!) I’ve got exams starting the 16th which is scaring me how not long away it is. I haven’t studied at all. After 5 months of constant placement I am knackered and have no idea how they expect us to study. Anyway, I’ll survive right?

I’ve finished my labour ward placement. I’ve left on 38 deliveries! That’s only 2 more to go until I meet the required amount! Never thought I’d have as many as I do! Feeling so much better about labour ward. Completely loved my placement this time round, just hope my assessment reflects it! haha

So, that’s really all that’s been going on. Work, work, work! 2 weeks until the exams and then I can finally breathe a sigh of relief for the first time since November!

On a side note!Does anyone know the normal range for urate levels in pregnancy?

I’ve been trying to find this information everywhere! I know what they are I just can’t find a reference to back it up for my essay! Cheers!

Please get better, Tyler.

Aunty Hazel and Uncle Ethan are worried sick.

We need you better. ♥